//____Smile_oO

2009-11-02T12:31:00.002+08:00

"Don't be afraid of the space between
your dreams and reality. If you can
dream it, you can make it so."

结婚？……

2009-10-09T22:59:00.003+08:00

结婚这个话题和他讨论过许久
他说他想……也觉得自己找到了那个他心中的她……
但莪却用谎言敷衍了他……
……
现在的莪竟然有了想结婚的想法！？！
……

选择了就要去爱~~

2009-10-01T22:47:00.002+08:00

最近的生活还是一团糟吧？
好像不可以这样形容吗？
剩下10天就Promo了，莪还在做着PW和CSE的project
默默的问自己。是莪的问题吗？
而心中没有什么答案。
因为莪没有选择。
在选择了去JC之后莪就没有退路了。
放弃了澳大利亚，放弃了加拿大，放弃了德国。
为了什么？
为了去一个更能让自己努力的地方。
我不是一个喜欢逃避的人，有问题就去面对，就去解决。
那不是莪的生活。
爸妈年纪也大了，他们也累了。
既然选择了留下，既然选择的A Level……
就要去喜欢，去爱自己的选择
不要对生活有什么抱怨，比你苦比你累的人多的是……
再坚持一年吧……

miss those days....

2009-07-28T08:09:00.002+08:00

i started to miss those days in cedar...

miss those rushing to the canteen days...

miss those cutting queue days...

miss those make fun of teachers days...

miss those no-pw days....

miss the school...

miss the classroom...

miss the food....

miss teachers...

and all my friends....

2009-07-20T22:16:00.001+08:00

Don't be afraid of the space between
your dreams and reality. If you can
dream it, you can make it so.

如果你到了20岁，还没到25岁！

2009-07-19T14:09:00.003+08:00

如果你已经过了20岁但还不到25岁的话，你必须找到除了爱情之外，能够使你用双脚坚强站在大地上的东西。你要找到谋生的方式。现在考虑不晚了。

　　我从来不以为学历有什么重要，天才都不是科班，但，不是科班，连龙套都跑不了。你必须把那些浮如飘絮的思绪，渐渐转化为清晰的思路和简单的文字。华丽和漂浮都不易长久。你要知道，给予文字阅读快感不够的，内容，思想，境界，灵魂，精神和智慧，这些才重要。不要多看那些和你一个路数的女作家的文字。不要琐碎，无病呻吟。不要想到什么就写。不要流连于小感伤和小感动。

　　我要你相信温暖，美好，信任，尊严，坚强这些老掉牙的字眼。我不要你颓废，空虚，迷茫，糟践自己，伤害别人。我不要你把自己处理得一团糟。节制自己的感情并且珍惜它，明白这种感情不是任何人都能要。体验生活，是另外一回事，并不意味着堕落和放纵。千万不要认同那些伪装的酷和另类。他们是无事可做的人找出来放任自己无事可做的借口，真正的酷是在内心。你要有强大的内心。要有任凭时间流逝，不会磨折和屈服的信念。不是因为在学校的象牙塔中，才说出我爱世界这样的话，是知道外面的黑，脏，丑陋之后，还要说出这样的话。好好去爱，去生活。青春如此短暂，不要叹老。偶尔可以停下来休息，但是别蹲下来张望。走了一条路的时候，记得别回头看。时不时问问自己，自己在干嘛?

　　伤心和委屈的时候，要嚎啕大哭。哭完洗完脸，拍拍自己的脸，挤出一个微笑给自己看。不要揉，否则第二天早上会眼睛肿。

　　
给自己一个远大的前程和目标。记得常常仰望天空。记住仰望天空的时候也看看脚下。

　　任何时候，任何人问你，有过多少次恋爱，答案是两次。一次是他爱我，我不爱他。一次是我爱他，他不爱我。好的爱情永远在下一次。别给同一个人两次伤害你的机会。

　　不要与浪子，文艺青年交往，别和没心没肺的人在一起，别和没有正当职业混日子的人在一起。

　　 别把犯贱当真爱。一个人作践自己来取悦你的时候，千万不要因此感动。一个男人的烟头烫在他身上，下一个就可能烫在你身上。同样的，当这个女人的刀片割断她的手腕，下次就可能割断你的。

　　千万别相信一个不准备将你介绍给他的朋友圈子的男人。一个女人只肯喊你“宝贝”的时候，坚持要她喊你的名字，因为你是男人。一个男人或者女人不再来找你的时候，就不要再去找他或者她。不要相信在恋爱上用手段的人。分手时不要口出恶言。吸取教训，但不要后悔。后悔没有用。别去做撕照片，烧信，撕日记这样一类三流爱情电视剧中才有人干的事。相信爱情。相信好男人和好女人还存在，还未婚，还在茫茫人海中寻觅你。别说“男人（或者女人）没一个好东西”，这样使别人误以为你阅人无数。

　　爱物质，适当地。永远知道精神更重要。比起那些名表，名牌，时装，更加美丽的是勤奋而有朝气的你自己。如果你20岁以后所花的每一分钱还都是伸手向父母亲人要来的，那你的满身名牌就只能衬托出你的无耻。别以为穿上名牌你就有品位，要知道如果没有真正的内涵，骡子配上金鞍也不会变成骏马。你还年轻，先不说开始你的事业，开创你的未来，但你已经成年，至少也要让自己不再成为父母的负担，让父母看到20年辛苦养育的希望。无所事事只会把你变成一个废物，一个被所有其他人鄙夷的废物，因为这样的你是一个不折不扣的寄生虫。别以为弄个怪异的发型，穿上不男不女的衣服，喷上刺鼻的香水，别人就会注重你，要明白那样招来的眼光就是别人在看一只与众不同的猴子。许多有教养的人对另类的你的反感并不写在脸上，但这种反感确凿无疑肯定会给你带来极其不利的后果。

　　别瞧不起劳动人民。不要为劳动羞耻。土地不脏，汗味不难闻。请尊重那些似乎生活状况不如你，但仍然用自己的双手诚实劳动养家糊口的人，因为这样才是尊重自己。永远体恤那些生活在底层的人们，因为我们的亲人就是在这些人群中。我们不娇贵。我们必须能够自己养活自己，这是你的尊严所在。

　　不要小看一分钱。不妨自己去挣挣看。做人有时要强悍一点，被欺负的时候，一定要讨回来！但是不要记恨。小人之见，随他们去好了。有原则的宽容和怜悯，会使你高贵。

　　被朋友伤害了的时候，别怀疑友情，但提防背叛你的人。原谅，但并不遗忘。做人存几分天真童心，对朋友保持一些侠义之情。要快乐，要开朗，要坚韧，要温暖。这和性格无关。但你要忠诚，勤奋，要真诚的尊重别人，这样你的人生才不会黑暗

.

李开复博士的一段话，很值得令人深思，回味。

"1st" Day of Term 3

2009-07-08T23:54:00.004+08:00

Yes.... my official 1st day for term 3...
and is only abt 90 days to promo...
when now im getting S-es for JCTs...
ok... i shall comment on my CT... wow... although i should not do it on my blog but nehmind... hope he can teach better than mrs.lim... that's my only hope... this is the only way to save my econs too...

why cant i sleep early everyday...even the 1st day of sch...=(

but there's sth im glad...
had lunch with OG mates...
had dinner with hc friends...
then shopping for JCT presents...
yughan so funny lah... when he poked the ice-cream into the root beer and it flow out.. and he totally didnt realise... till we shouted.. hahaha

i shld think positively right?!
yes...
even he can go northwestern... why cant i go cornell...
haha...yeah!!!

i shall not crap anymore...
life is short... live it up...
这说不定也是一种享受。

ps...if anyone see this post... and read till here( which is quite amazing...) and you realised you still owe me $$$... pls return me asap!!! coz im broke!!!! thanks a lot!!!

如果我变成回忆……

2009-07-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

如果我变成回忆

累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的就停止了
听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越没力越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握
如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你我不怪你
快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的最舍不得
如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你
如果我变成回忆最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力把我忘记

by TANK

Alive Again...

2009-07-04T15:22:00.002+08:00

Yes... I'm Back to blog again...
JCT is finally over!
im satisfied with all S-es...seriously...
as long as is not U... haha...
have 4 days of holiday till tue
so kinnda free to "reborn" this blog
haha...

go and watch 星光 now
dont want to think abt anything related to studies...

I need to REST!

2009-05-15T01:11:00.002+08:00

so proud of myself!
okay.... hc camp will start in 17hrs...
within this period of time... i have to sit for one maths test and one chem test!
in the morning... there's mass pe too!!!
this is nothing to me!
seriously!
but bcoz of the gp current affair... im dying.... seriously
hate to write essays... esp is in eng!
and yah... juz so tired of all the things...
i dunno if i have alr adapted to JC life...
but i dont lyk it...
i want to do the things i like... not sth like PW!
useless thing! who on earth created this subject huh!?
oh man! is 1:15... and i havnt study for the tests and not done with even one article!!!! how?!?! someone save me pls!!!!

cant wait to going back....
第一次有这样的感觉
突然可以明白那些人的心情。。。
呵呵。

累是累。但莪要笑着面对一切。因为这是我的人生！

it's my life.... this's what i have do to archive the things i want!

FIGHTING! AONAN!

April!

2009-04-26T01:33:00.002+08:00

yupp...
ran for ALPHA HC...with limmited posters and a last min changed speech
and seriously dunno izzit what i want!
with the seniors and the ppl... i really dunno...
but i continued and ended it with no regrets...
tmr or maybe today.... is the big day...
12届的就职典礼
like what i said in 会讯
i finally got the card to go into SPH!!!
yeah!!!
okay... still high不起来
虽然没有不开心。但就是没有了那种感觉。
再写吧。
要弄明天用的东西。
跟自己说晚安！哈

PS:CONGRATS TO TIANYU AND YUXIN FOR BECOMING THE NEW HOUSE CAP!!!JIAYOU!!!

累

2009-04-17T22:24:00.002+08:00

现在的一切和一切只能用累这一个字来形容
可以理解以前大家所说的那种JC生活！
昨晚只睡了两个小时，早上还有mass PE
可恶的PW，还有变态的meeting
虽然以前Cedar也有，可某些感觉真的很难去形容。
TJ和Cedar真的是完全不同的环境和氛围
ms ying 说的那些真的很对
there's reason why we are called the VJ rejects...
the mentality is not there!
最近发现自己又开始挑剔别人的毛病了
虽然自己不完美
但真的受不了那些无知，幼稚，自以为是但很多时候又毫无信心的人。
在还没尝试的情况下就放弃了自己！
怎么可以！？！
如果有想要的就一定要尽自己最大的努力去得到！
既然要放弃，那你凭什么想要去得到，那些东西又凭什么属于你？
10000个小时这个定律不是毫无根据的！！

我也要加油了！世界上没有免费滴东西呀！！！！

累是值得的！！！

笑~~~

2009-03-29T23:53:00.002+08:00

好久没有来blog上写东西了。
本来打算在O'lvl之后好好整顿这里的。
可只顾着去疯了。
甚至都没好好的整理、总结一下自己这一年来的一切。
现在J1的3个月已经过去了。
12届的meeting也开始了。
一个人的生活也过了好久。
真的觉得很累。很累~~~
但从来没有后悔过这一切。
因为他们都是我的选择。
我的决定。
这就是人生吧。
我们只可以笑着面对~~~~
aonan FIGHTING！！！

jia you!

2008-07-19T23:50:00.004+08:00

Jia You everybody!

A Za A Za...

阴天！

2008-07-17T19:12:00.002+08:00

烦。烦。烦。
不知道这些天都是怎么了。
就是提不起精神。
尤其今天。
全班也都好像被什么笼罩住了一样。
哎。。。

i really wanna kill OY now...
i really hate her...
half day off on RHD bcoz we won 4 championships.
why muz it on RHD!?
cant you discuss with the teachers and students in the sch!?
cant you know more abt the situation in sch!?
u know nothing!
juz care only abt the building fund...
...

no longer looking forward to RHD...

*AONAN... u shld start to revise your work le!!!!!

Express Urself Day...

2008-07-08T19:41:00.004+08:00

lala...juz some fotos on Cedar Express Urself Day...

(Liverpool...)

(Chelsea...)

(Y stands for Yellow....)

(ENG...)

(i'm gonna fall...)

(we're coming to catcha...)

(i cant dao in front of the dustbin...)

(say CHEEZZzzz.....)

(huh!? yoyo!!!...)

we are 4C'08.... one big family....

死亡状态。寻找自己。

2008-06-23T21:42:00.005+08:00

猫猫躲的太久。躲的太多。
甚至自己也被自己隐藏。
迷茫。无助。困惑。

但。

我依然努力。

寻找自己。

1st day of the term...
yes...
that's all that i wanna say...

aonan alr. jin ru si wang zhuang tai

(dead condition)...

and i'll last for abt 4-5months...

13 Nov 2008 9:00am...

is the time that she will fu huo...

bye... aonan...

xulong outing.+ kan bing...

2008-06-16T21:14:00.005+08:00

okay... juz dont wanna do my hw now... so shall write sth abt the outing on Sat...yupp... sat we went to Sentosa....yeah...it suppose to be some grp outing... xulong combine with i dunno which long also....at the end... it become zhi wei outing...and i'm the rep for all the members of the 2 grps... hahaz...
erm... it was fun... juz fun lah...
dont ask me how...
juz can make ppl lauf... yah... HAHAHAHA.
but most of us got really bad sunburn...
for me... my tou pi all red red one... then very tong...
for lx... same as me... but her face is much more lyk tomato...hahaz...
for mq... heard that his skin is only going to peel aft a few weeks?! shocked...
for xc.... not so red... but skin very tong also...
for rx... hahaz... red+pain... so can3....
for the rest... dunno... hahahz....
aft that we went to play pool.... yah... juz lyk that lor...
5 of us squeeze inside one taxi... yeah.. the uncle is so nice...
a happy day!

cedarians....

cedarians... erm!? there's an uncle behind...

"cedarians" --- some cedella!?

ruan pai...

one early grp foto...

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16/06/08...

went to sch in e morning... had lessons...
but i totally not in the mood....
then went to see doctor for my neck...
and the doctor say is juz tai stress and huo qi tai da...
here's a convo btw me and doctor...
doc: nehmind de... is juz huo qi tai da... too stress...
me: huh? huo qi da ah!? but i got drink liang cha leh... got luo han guo... yang sen... xia ku cao... and wadeva lah...
doc: liang cha!? how much u drink!?
me: 2 cups bah!?
doc: 2 桶都不够！！ the liang cha is too WEAK for u now...
wowowow.... even liang cha also become useless...
i'm juz too HOT.... arh.... hahaz....
so yupp... actually my neck no much prob. xia si ren...
-----------------

on the mrt...a convo with my mum...
i tink both of us are juz feng le....
me: 哎。钱不够用啊。
mummy：钱不够用？以后找个有钱的老公咯。
me：找有钱的！？找姓“钱”的比较容易吧。
mummy：哈哈。嗯。生个儿子。名字就叫：钱来。
me：二儿子叫：钱再来。
mummy：女儿呢？
me：钱花。
mummy：钱再花。
me：钱小花。
mummy：还有个宠坏了的小儿子叫：钱乱花。
me：3个字的名字都用完了。
mummy：钱来钱花？钱来随便花？钱来花太郎！？ - -

i totally wu yu... she is more shen jing bing than me... wowow....cant believe that's my MUM.

kung ku panda...

2008-06-15T22:28:00.003+08:00

there's some quotes frm kung fu panda... not hello panda....
nehmind... it's cold...
erm... they are juz so simple... yet... meaningful & impactful....
though a feng lv sat beside me while watching... but I'm glad that she called me to watch it...
hahaz...yupp... xie lah...

1.nothing is impossible... wowow..
2.there are no accidents...
3.Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift. That's why they call it 'the present'.
4.You’re good enough.

love Po... hahaz... ^__________^

doesn't mean i'm emo

2008-06-13T01:20:00.005+08:00

when i walk with heads down

doesn't mean i'm emo

when i frown alot

doesn't mean i'm depressed

just because i like gore

doesn't mean i'm gothic

i am who i feel i want to be...

i'm happy.

.me>>aonan.today.now.here.

2008-06-08T14:39:00.001+08:00

我以一种抗拒的姿势坐着发呆。

不喜欢此时心里的感受，

寂寥。空落。颓废。

还有那呼之欲出的莫名的恐惧。。。

survey...

2008-06-05T16:18:00.002+08:00

hahaz... im rotting in the lib now...
at least better than at home...

so bored and get this frm yanjie who grabbed from zoey who grabbed from chun shu:

the longest survey you'll ever fill it out

Do the world a favor: fill it out and post it for all your friends. Do this because the person who filled it out before you didn't sit here for ages for nothing. Answer all the questions honestly, no lying to avoid stuff.

starting time:16:30
Name: Li Aonan ( NOT aoLan....)
Sister/s: no... 老爸老妈严格遵守计划生育政策。。。
brother/s: same as above...
Shoe size: 39?40 ard dere depends on the shoe company rite!?
height:168... some whr dere... actually i'm satisfied...if i lose some weight.hahaz
What are you wearing right now? titong 07 camp tee with cedar shorts. i love titong and cedar that's why... see...
Where do you live? kallang currently....
Favorite Numbers: 27...der...
Favorite Drink: H2O... plain H2O... milk and juices...
Favorite Months: hol months... esp dec... lurvee snow... but dont really love winter that much... coz chu men hen ma fan and got lesser things to play...
Favorite Breakfast: wowow... a lot things leh... dont tok abt food lah... i can crap all the way till the end of the world... hahaz

***********Have You Ever***********
Broken a bone: yah... little finger... whn i was 6!? thanks to the person who at the end become one of my very close friend...
Swam in the ocean: yah... china... almost go to meet god and guan yin mah or whoever is up there.
Fallen asleep in school: der... harlo!? i'm aonan leh... every teacher noes... sleep frm 1st period to the last period whn the bell rang whn i was sec2.... hahaz... now okay lah... cant afford to fall a sleep... hahaz.
Broken someones heart: yah... juz... two days ago... sorry... i hav no choice...
Cried when someone died: no really... but cried when i saw those sichuan ppl... does it count!?
Sat by the phone waiting for someone to call: erm... not really... okay... yes also lah...
Saved e-mails: erm... yah...
Been cheated on: yes... that kind of e zuo ju lor...

***********What is************
Your room like?erm... got a lot ppl came b4 liaoz mah... lazy to describe
What's right beside you? yan jie! hahaz...and piles of books and sweets...
What is the last thing you ate? meal: KFC... zinger the fish... tibits: milk sweet...

----------------------Ever Had--------------------------
Chicken pox: nope...
Sore throat: seldom... aft i scream...
Stitches: not really
Broken Nose: how to break your nose?

-------------------------Do You--------------------------
Believe in love at first sight? yah... but it wont last...
Like picnics: it depends on my mood...

---------------------------who was------------------------------
the last person you danced with? nobody... hate dancing...
last made you smile? renxin?! last nite!? or maybe myself... hahahaz....

----------Final Questions-------------
What are you listening to right now? wu yue tian's song.
what did you do today? rotting in the tpy lib...wif yanjie
Good singer? erm... anyone hear me sing b4!?!? u all can judge lor...
Diamond or pearl? both... juz get everything... hahaz.
Are you the oldest? depends whr... hahaz... normally in the middle... hahaz
Indoors or outdoors? depends on what to do... and my mood again...

------------------Today did you----------------------
Talk to someone you like? erm... lyk as in love? or juz lyk.... if the latter case... yes.. yanjie lor.
Kiss anyone? erm.... can i skip this qn... ?
Get sick? no...
Talked to an ex? nope.... dont tok to ex...
Miss someone: yah... miss a lot ppl leh...
Eat: yah... i'm lyk keep on eating ....this's sad...

----------------Last person who------------------
You talked to on the phone: yanjie... this morning
Last person you txted: renxin... yanjie... this morning again... her name keep appearing... i noe..
Made you Cry? erm... not person... is thing.. my stupid chem result...
Went to the movies with: cant rmb... lyk so damn hell long tym ago...

------------------Have you-------------------
Been to Vegas? nope...
Been to New York? nope... but new york new york yes!

-------------------Random-------------- ------
Have a crush? yes... der... everyone has.
What books are you reading right now? textbooks....
Best feeling in the world: dunno... diff to decide... with family and friends together! w/o worrying abt life, works and wadeva shit things...
Future kids names? no "N" sound.... if not some teacher will pronounce it as "L"
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yah... my bears...
What's under your bed: a mattress... guzheng jia... cant rmb....
Favorite sport(s) to watch: no fav one... but always watch... soccer... table tennis.. snooker... vball............
Favorite location: swiss... in singapore: places can play.... in china: Dalian!
Who do you really hate? not really hate lah... juz... taoyan... fan... sometimes...
Ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with? yah...
You lonely right now?no... with yanjie...

What time is it now? 17:00

i took half an hr to do...
hahaz...

i stop emo le.... but i'm rotting....

Class BBQ

2008-06-04T19:59:00.003+08:00

shld be blogging abt yst's class bbq... and sending ah xue off... but...
dont feel lyk blogging now...

aft i get fotos then start to blog bah... hahaz...

1st day of rotting...

2am!

2008-06-04T01:51:00.002+08:00

GOOD MORNING any freak who visit me when this post is juz posted.
hope no one come to my blog at this tym... 2am...
i juz freaking bored now... and... these are juz holy craps.
wowowow...
dont feel lyk doing anything...
juz wanna rot and rot and rot...
then will decompose slowly...
but sadly im not in the TRF... so... i wont do good to mother Earth!
hahahahaz...
aonan... stop all this... juz feng le... totally...

so wad shld i do tmr... i mean this aft...
mug ? or really rotting ?
why we all lik dat one huh?
fan si...
go slp now...
so dat i'll stop tinking of all these shit stuffs...

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0406080200....aonan... stop emo... u dont belong to there!

Room Warming Day...

2008-06-03T11:16:00.004+08:00

yeah... yst was ROOM warming day...
and my dear room warmers damn enthu...almost burn down the whole hs lor...hahaz... dunno how did they even fit in... lyk wowowow.... 10 ppl in my room!? actually is 9ppl + 1 half human half pig...hahaz...we took half an hr to decide wad to drink in NTUC! and we bought 1 bottle of ice-lemon tea. 1 bottle of green tea. 1 bottle of orange juice. 2 tins of sth and 3 bottles of sth else. ( some alcoholic drink....cannt say out... muz act guai....)
LX,Krystal,Iris and XC play bridge and the other 4 dong bei ren juz play some dong bei poker game... which is called niang niang!? ( who the hell came out with this name huh!? dont understand...) then we played sth lyk polar bear... and i was the useless police!!! wowow!!! nehmind. aft that we ordered 4 pizzas and i tink is not enough lor... hahahaz.
at3pm XC and krystal left and WG and YY came....juz ruan high again...wowow.

left my hs at ard 5pm...cuz is really sian and hav nothing to do liaoz....hahaz.
so we went to kallang leisure park... wowow... thanks to xj that we hav to walk damn long to reach there. hahaz... but juz dang zuo exercise lor... we wanna bowl at 1st... yupp... but there are some rich and idotic ppl juz book the whole place and we only can play abt 1hr... that made us very bu shuang!!! so we hav no choice, but left the place ya. aft lyk very very long.... we then decide on wad to do... so 7 of us then went to Marina Sq again....

wowow... i very pei fu the taxi driver leh! at 1st juz tok to us some random stuffs... then sing... then dunno how to go.... then... he saw renxin's nokia n73 music edition... he seems know everything but which is he shen me dou bu zhi dao! keep on forcing renxin to say one modal of nokia phone which is nice.... so renxin gave a fone which is already outdated.... wohahahaha... at the end, he said sonyericssion is better... then u still ask tok so much on nokia! wowow. which is take a taxi also bu shuang!

yupp... of course we went to eat 1st then bowl! liao lu B vs liao shan A this tym hahaz...
ren xin was lyk finally zhao dao gan jue... keep on strike and spare. woa aha aha aha aha... my my ball and ah xue's ball juz kept on going into the drain... and we all had our "best" score ever...lol...the other team also not bad lah... though NS duno how to bowl but they manage to keep the score close... and randomly we started some shake hand session.... hahaz... lx juz xiao dao bao at one point of tym coz renxin tought that lixue is xiao jiao's laogong! hahahaz.... but also not very funny leh....

ard 10pm... ns and xj went home... lx also cant stay too late as she is going to fei tonite... so shuai cheng, ren xin and me went to send her... really dunno wad to do with that 3 bottles of BEER... wowowow... we actually brought it all the way from my hs and hav no place to drink!!! 3 of us wanna to 解决 the drinks but juz wowow and we sat at mac and become some emo-ing time... hahaz... we almost intend to pour the beer into the coke bottle then suck it with straw... but juz bu shuang... u know... beer... muz drink the correct way... and we also no mood... - -|||

so we took taxi home as someone dont wanna carry the NTUC plastic bag which make him look lyk ahbei.... hahaz... so reached home at 11++ only...

then online ruan high... ruan emo... ruan sian... with ah xue and ren xin...
and i stared to emo... which xia dao ta men! but i'm okay lah... really... dont worry...
maybe juz saw the piles of book in front of me, started to worry the "future" which i really bu xiang care but muz care... nehmind... i know i still got my mama, papa, my other family members, friends, teachers and any other categories that i didnt mention. hahaz...
yupp... end here... prepare to go for class bbq in sharm's hs.. last day to high b4 start to mug. yup... enjoy life... though which is hen nan....

thanks all the ppl who coming to my hs to warm it and gave me such a great day! hope it did not cause global warming...
*lixue
*iris
*krystal
*ni shuai
*xiao jiao
*min cong
*xu chang
*yy
*wang guan
*shuai cheng
*ren xin

and thanks lx, krystal, iris and renxin for the presents!

lazy to upload fotos... upload later... hahaz...^______________^

bridge session... i look unglam... but hu cares!hahaz..

WG....juz keep on hugging my pillow....

wow... wad is this?!

kong bu fen zi!!!!

erm... act shuai!?!?!

liao shan A team... NS,SC and XJ...

liao lu B team... LX, RX and me...

erm... act tall... lol.... oready so tall...

juz look at the score of the 1st person... lol....

shift hs but is raining now!!!

2008-05-31T16:25:00.002+08:00

wowow. is becoming my fav. word nowadays. hahaz
erm...thur. nite i suppose to study with lx. but then we ended up ruan high in starbucks again!
hahaz. details refer to LX's blog... - -|||

friday. tired. i'm suppose to study with rachel and janjan again. then ...
hahaz. ya... i zi high down there. also bcoz i didnt bring my hw lah.
i made janjan and rachel high also. then we juz started speak in "f" language. wowowow!
that's so fun...
at nite went tuition. nothing go into my mind... i juz stone lyk shit... bu xiang care.

now i'm still packing at home...
prepare to shift hs later ard 7pm or 8?! dunno...
totally no mood for everything... juz wanna shui si or sth....
oh ya... when i was packing my packing my stuffs. i saw this DA QIANG!!
OMG OMG, i really wanna zha si ta! but is very kong bu!
and this stupid fellar juz doesnt wanna move， some abnormal de 种！
then i got ask the small boy in my hs to help me sha si ta!
poor fellar... but who ask doesnt wanna move... see lar...
this is call deng si !

this hol. is not a hol...
wowowow...
i actually only left with 15days b4 sch reopen to do hw, studay for tests!
juz hope that i can do everything within the 15days!
hahaz... dont wanna emo...
emo wont help me to achieve my result!
hahahahaz...

erm... monday is my room warming liaoz...
dunno how many ppl coming leh.
lx wanna go bowling aft that.
bowl til siao
tue is class bbq... hoho... sharm book the game room for 4 hrs.
i'm going to play pool.
pool til siao
aft that my study plan will take effect.
study til si.... hahahahaz
and somemore dunno whn can shift the internet service to new hs
so cant go online. wowowowowow. lao tian also wan me to study!!

to siying: i'm busy packing lar... u keep on tok to me on msn
to LX: u juz suddenly bu care wo. shui si? or zai ci bei zha si? or sth? come earlier on monday lah
to shui bian de ren men: dont say urself is a sui bian de ren! sui bian = sui2 di4 da4 xiao3 bian4! hahahahahaz....

okok. end here.. mama going to come back.
hope can unpack everything and clean the hs nicely b4 hs warming! hahaz!

几米の图文

2008-05-29T12:32:00.004+08:00

幾米の繪本。

疲惫人生
大家都说做人好累，我也这么觉得。
要戴上假发、戴上面具、戴上眼镜、戴上笑容。
穿上内衣、穿上外衣、再穿上外套，
穿上内裤、穿上外裤、再系上皮带，
穿上袜子、穿上鞋子、再绑上鞋带，
天天都得如此，直到上天堂。

万人游戏
我不是真的想踩着你的头往上爬。
我也没有办法，
他踩我，我踩你，踩来踩去大家也就习惯了。
真高兴往上爬的人是我，被踩的扁扁的人是你。

变身
春雨濛濛的午夜，
我化装成一只狗，我家哈利假扮成一个人，一起到公园散步。
很多事情是无法改变的。
不管是人或是狗。是化装成人的狗，或是装扮成狗的人。
对于某种无法改变的习性，我感到一种宿命的无奈。

假面的告白
星期六的早上，我突然觉得疲累，
坐在公园的石椅上，
决定摘下带了许久的头盔。
很多事情是没有原因的，
我顺畅的呼吸，却感到焦虑。
慎重的思考，
应该脱下兽皮，
或是重新带上威武的头盔。

看了一场看不懂的电影，
四处张望，
发现别人专注而陶醉，
才忽然明白　
孤独是什么。

摘不到的星星，
总是最闪亮的。
溜掉的小鱼，
总是最美丽的。
错过的电影，
总是最好看的。
失去的情人，
总是最懂我的。
我始终不明白，
这究竟是什么道理。

寂寞的时候，我低下头，跟著路上别人的鞋子走。
卡、卡、卡、卡、向前走，遇到一只会跳踢踏舞的红色高跟鞋。
卡、卡、卡、卡、向前走，遇到一只会跳华尔兹的蓝色高跟鞋。
卡、卡、卡、卡、向前走，只要走过一千步，
寂寞就会跟著别人的鞋子，卡、卡、卡、卡、走了。

神秘分界线
小丑的世界，总被一分为二，
一半阳光，一半阴影；
一半欢乐，一半凄凉。
我真想知道，
那一条神秘的分界线究竟是什么？

浮沈风景
有人浮起来，有人沈下去。
楼顶的风景与楼底的风景，
永远不会一样，
谁也别羡慕谁

----摘自幾米論壇。

♥几米。

如何走出这条路？！

2008-05-28T17:30:00.003+08:00

这条路要如何继续走下去。
莪真的
好烦。
好烦。

ruan high ruan high!

2008-05-28T14:33:00.006+08:00

yeah!!! ruan high! ruan high rocks!

extra lessons started yesterday!
it was so boring and dunno how to describe. hahaz
but with my ruan high skills... we actually enjoy ourselves.
aft that went to tpy lib to meet krystal ( yeah. i spell it correctly!!!), yy and auntie mc...
i havt cool down yet, they juz pull me to eat.
we stand in the middle of no where to discuss?! no no is quarrel what to eat.
mc auntie always against me leh! why huh!?
by the time we went back lib. somee irritating guy took auntie mc's seat.
we're pissed!

To that 脑残 person: pls do not touch ppl's things w/o permission. if u wan a nice seat. go the lib earlier to chop lor!!! fan! say sorry is also mei yong! u dunno sorry no cure meh!?

nehmind. i sound lyk some bu jiang li de shen jing xiao lv haier. hahahaz. anyway. juz bu shuang! but we 大人有大量。赦免他。

so we went to yy's hs. u juz ruan high instead of studying. only auntie mc wrote 500-600 words for his essay! hahaz. we even follow mc to his guzheng sch. and ruan high there!!
wowowowow!

aft went home juz randomly tok to ppl and LX, YY, MC and me juz mei shi zhao shi and then we add xue di in the convo also. wahahaha. i bet he juz bu yao care what we tok. actually we ourselve also bu care. until yy left and lx's com hang! then ended the convo at ard 1am. went to play nfs b4 sleep. someone said he go play dota. izzit mc or xuedi!? wowow i dont even know hu zai he wo jiang hua! hahahaz.

morning wake up late and did tie my hair. juz walk on the street lyk xiao za bo. then randomly sms ppl to disturb them bcoz i bu shuang that even hol i also hav to wake up early for lessons!!!
throughout today's lesson's i zi high and ruan high!
weid thing is that mr goh is also very high today! bring us sweets to eat randomly!
o ya! ms chng gave us choco to eat coz she said there may not be food for us in canteen! so SWEET! hahaz....

packing my stuffs now! zhun bei ban jia to kallang (izzit spell lyk that!? nehmind)
my hs is luan lyk some 鸡窝. everything juz ruan fei!!!
btw anyone wanna come to my small room for room warming!?!?!
actually i also dunno what to do. juz wanna ruan high! if not i'll bu shuang si or fan si!

cant wait for clss bbq and dunno wad long outing!!! gonna be fun!

♥mummy
♥4 cadre 2008
♥mr goh and all the teachers
♥titong
♥xulong
♥Cl
♥cl exco '07-'08
♥all my friends, seniors, juniors and etc. hahahahaz
♥myself
♥my future life.

update photos in random order! hahahahahaz

zoey's 1st bd cake. strawberry ice-cream cake from hou lao shi! yeah!

trying to do sth. dunno wad are we doing. hahaz

make a wish... (*grow vertically grow vertically... hahaz... joking joking)

*why the cake so hard to cut. zao zhi dao jiu bu yao mai le... hahaha....

feng nv MYJ... totally feng that day!

sports day 2008 class photo

sports day 2008 class photo

bougai cheer leaders! they rock! (:

yy & me ( black shirt, green + pink pants wowowow. and bowling shoes!)

sharm's phone and mine with squashy stickers! (:

Crosscountry 2008 class foto under the hot sun!

drawing house identity for sharm (: during sports day

constipated faces.... hahahaz....so huany...

生命。生活。生死。

2008-05-26T16:29:00.002+08:00

生命，如此脆弱又如此珍贵，生在这世上已不容易，所以我们应该珍惜它！人常说造物主伟大，而我却说生命最伟大，有了生命就有了创造一切奇迹的可能，不是吗？只要心存相信，即使有百分之一的希望就要付出百分之百的努力。

生活，多姿多彩，一味的痛苦未免沉重，一味的快乐未免肤浅，我品尝着生活的苦与甜，享受着阳光，沐浴着日光，倾听着星语。其实，无论多困苦，只要怀着一颗美好纯真的心，就会将泪水锤炼成诗行。不是有句话说：上帝爱我，所以惩罚我吗？

生死，两个矛盾的字眼放在一起，竟然会组成一个如此不矛盾的词语。每个人的生命都有着惊人的相似。生又何妨，死又何哀，生死都不重要，重要的是生的过程，过好每一天，就不枉来这世上走一圈。

最近因四川地震和身边滴一些事有的一点点感触。嘻嘻。

i'm back...

2008-05-26T15:00:00.004+08:00

yoyo... i'm back.
it has been 3months since my last post. wow!
a lot of things happend. and i'm kidda really busy although i dunno really know what did i do!

maybe i shld go backwards. hahaz

yesterday was the last day for zao bao bei ping pang lei dai sai.
shld be the 1st day for me actually. but i xtra xtra went for both Satday sessions bcoz of somebody!
erm... we bought bk for breakfast! why there's no mac whn i finally woke up early one day!
*sigh sigh. but nehmind... btw. the burger is damn big. who will eat such a big burger early in the morning!??!?! all 4 of us who ate the burger felt damn fullll.... my stomach is going to bao zha oready... ( lou bei nv is there also. ying xiang my 食欲。)

aft that we started to do all the things that we suppose to do. hahaz packing the goodie bags lah... arranging the blockers... and of course luan high at the same time... hahaz...

dunno since when xue di and me have to go around to give out clappers to free members... the ppl who suppose to take, dont want to take. ppl who hav duty and not suppose to take it, wanted the clappers. why huh!? why things always lyk that huh!? nehmind...

at the end. xue, xue di and yuhang, cyrstal and etc. ppl went up to 2nd floor to clap (制造气氛。) and me! the poor me hav to stay downstairs to help xiujin jie with the VIP seats. my jiao is damn pain... all 麻 le... hahaz. but still quite fun cuz we all zi high.
upstairs. when we are making qi fen.

iris's shoe compare with xue di's 船 (but i'm the one wearing it. hahaz.)

the light blue shirt boy is so blur and cute haha. but 人不可貌相. he is pro equally leh....he is this yr's champion for 12 and under and he won the $1000 lucky draw also. congrats! hahaz.

aft everything. we went to eat in the middle of the shopping centre. and surrounded by the blockers. lyk 猪猪 eating in the 猪圈。hahahaz.

then, 6 of us. xue,yy, me, xue di, yuhang, and cq went to marina sq to bowl. hahaz. so funny. all kinds of poses. xue,yy and me hav to share one orange 8 pound ball coz we all think that's the lucky ball and the pink one is unlucky. hahaz. went to play pool aft we bowl. 5 of us are all equally lan. only can pose. hahahahaz. and everytime faqiu, the white ball will go into holes... hahaz. yuhang also make our 乡音 came out. and we suddenly started some 东北话 session.

ah xue is juz too high and dont want to go home. wanted xue di and me to pei ta.
but at the end she juz bought one bottle of beer and drink on the way to mrt.
both ah xue and xue di went red. hahaz. and by the time i left the mrt, xue di is so red that even his eyes are red... hahaz.
and xue di also very poor thing cuz hav to carry our heavy bags all the time. hahaz. thank you xue di if u happen to read this post! ^_______________^

can see the lollipop? hahahahahaz.xue, ren hui and me with the cute ping pang pai cartoon thing. love it so much. hahaz
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satday.

i think this post is going to be damn hell long. wow!

went to tpy to visit them as someone said no one pei ta.
BUT when i reached, i dont even hav a place to seat leh.
we all damn bored there and went to buy the 丸子 poker card. sui sui jiahui jie came back and we juz give up on this idea. xue di started to take fotos. all kinds of weird things. and ah xue , xuedi and me form some 辽鲁B thingy to go agianst the 辽A person 哈哈。
ai ya a lot of zi high and luan high thing lah. sooner will become titong de chuan tong to be lyk that lor. what act gay xing dong lah. cheering xing dong. cedella? (by xue di) hahaaz.
purple shirt guy. hahaz

xue di's two poses.... hahahahaz.
btw the 帅帅 no.2 doesnt wanna po huai xing xiang. so there's no foto of him!!!!

♥titong. ♥this big family.

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friday...

crossctry day and zoey's bdae. happy 16-yr-old bdae Zoey! my laopo.

almost all sec4s wanted to walk throughout the 3.5km bedok reservior xctry. but at the end we didnt. hahaz berNice, dione, fiona, yuxin, jes and me stick as one grp. we played 剪刀。石头。布 to let either the losers and winners to run... but stopped in the middle by ms ng. hahaz.

we took class fotos under the hot sun and did bilibanjang!?! then the other classes started to copy us. hahaz. ( so sad fotos not with me now. )

then cl exco'07-'08 went to zoey's hs to bath and change
HLS give us lyk 5min and we took 5*10=50min. hahaz.
finally decided on eating swensen to help him save some $$ and he still order so many things and one big ice-cream cake for us. make me cant finish my baked rice.
MYJ is mad that day and came out with all sorts of weird actions!!! wow!! and she even ate slower than peewee that day!!! HCL also siaosiao... pour H2o into each other's cup together with cs and at then end the H2o all splash to everywhere! aiyo!

after all, thanks HLS for ur help ,guidance, support and of course lame jokes throughout the whole yr. we'll miss u and the meal that day. hahaz. a big thank you to hls and the exco 07-08. hahaz. i ♥ you all.

aft eating, we went to shop from TM to Century Sq to BK to Expo WOW!!! from popular fair to FOOD fair. hahaz i think we total walked for ard 10km that day! hahaz.

i juz realise my jiao is continuously suan and tong this few days. hahaz. i'm here to say sorry to my jiao. maybe i really shld 瘦一点 to 减轻伱的负担。 hahahahaz.

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♥ to be continued....

2008-02-27T23:47:00.001+08:00

juz wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MYSelf!

i'm 18 now!

Wuahahahahaz.....

happy happy. yeah!

2008-02-24T20:39:00.003+08:00

ya... my blog is dead.
nvm.i juz dont feel lyk writing.
today is pre-campbriefing.
juz dont hav that kind of 气氛.
i also dunno wad 气氛 am i talking about.
everyone seems so stress and emo. wadeva.
and i'm going to become a 18-year-old. lao le.
but i'm always young if compare wtih the me of tmr.
cant wait for OAC break. camp and march hol.
hahaz.

i actually went to "job interview" for KOI CAFE. hahaz
wanna work in the year i'm going to take O'level.
there're two reasons basically.
1st. i'm broke, so i cant always ask $$ from my mum. i hav to be independent!!!
2nd. i wan myself to get use to this kind of situation or condition. life is always going to be harder as time goes by and we hav to face it and accept it.
3rd. even i stay at home. i dont feel lyk studying or mugging. not lyk those mugger. i really cant understand wad are they thinking. hahaz
i think i'm 疯(insane) already! really. really 疯!

sian. dont wan to do my english maths bio and chinese hw now.
i shall drag to after OAC break.
since mrs chiew is going to be on course on these two days.
and chinese. yah chinese. who cares!

yay. so.the end. good nite my blog. hahaz.

way back into love

2008-02-10T14:42:00.000+08:00

Way back into love

I've been living with a shadow overhead

我终日生活在阴影中

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

就连睡在床上;乌云也是紧跟不放

I've been lonely for so long

我已经孤单寂寞了好久

Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

不断漫游在过去,却一直没有机会向前行

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

我把所有的希望及梦想藏匿

Just in case I ever need em again someday

只是为了今后我还有机会需要它们

I've been setting aside time

我努力争取时间

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

为了能保持我心中一块小小的角落能够洁净无瑕

All I want to do is find a way back into love

我只想尽一切可能,把爱找回来

I can't make it through without a way back into loveOh oh oh

如果没有了那份爱;我一定撑不过来

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

我一直在等待那不愿闪亮的繁星

I've been searching but I just don't see the signs

我一直在找寻,但却毫无头绪

I know that it's out there

我知道它就在某处

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

在某处一定有著什麼力量能解放我的灵魂

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

我一直在寻找一个能为我闪耀光芒的人

Not just somebody just to get me throught the night

并不是一个仅仅陪我一夜的人

I could use some direction

我会试著给你一个方向

And I'm open to your suggestions

并接纳一切你给我的建议

All I want to do is find a way back into love

我只想尽一切可能,把爱找回来

I can't make it through without a way back into love

如果没有了那份爱;我一定撑不过来

And if I open my heart again

如果我再一次敞开心房

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

我想我会期盼你就这麼陪我到最后

There are moments when I don't know if it's real

此时此刻;如幻似真

Or if anybody feels the way I feel

或许会有某人跟我有著相同的感觉

I need inspiration

我需要一点灵感

Not just another negotiation

而非一次又一次的妥协

All I want to do is find a way back into love

我只想尽一切可能,把爱找回来

I can't make it through without a way back into love

如果没有了那份爱;我一定撑不过来

And if I open my heart to you

如果我对你敞开心房

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

我会希望你告诉我该怎麼做

And if you help me to start again

如果你希望一切从新来过

You know that I'll be there for you in the end

你知道我会就这麼陪著你走到最后

人和人之间！

2008-02-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

一天之内竟然听到3个人分手的消息。
先是毛毛哥：为了给她一个惊喜，从国内跑来这里找她，可结果呢？
海天：放弃了工作，前途，甚至自己，得到的呢！？
HJ：不顾身边人的反对，只为了和她在一起，最后有如何呢！？

人和人之间的感情就这么如此不堪一击吗？
慢慢的，我越来越不了解人与人之间的感情。
越来越发现自己不懂得怎么和人相处。
甚至连最亲密的好朋友之间都存在着猜疑，
情侣之间更有无数无法让人理解的问题。
为什么呢？
心里乱乱的。
以前人与人之间的信任都跑去哪里了！？！
不明白，也根本不想去明白了。
明白了又有何用呢…………

i'm alright. =)

2008-02-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

class notice board is finally over.
is kind of amazing that we actually made it.
i'm so proud of our class and our form teacher.
yay.
for this damn thing,
we stay back everyday until around 6 or 7,
and ganna chase out by either the auntie or the uncle
but is all worth it. hahaz.

some of the picz taken by aqilampard =)
lazy to upload my own picz.

back of the classroom

notice board<>

notice board 2
(we took out the lion on the sheid,hahaz,
it juz doesnt suit our theme,
but we hav to do some NE stuffs,
if not mr. chai will not be happy, hahaz.)

font door. cheezezz

scoll thingy outside the class, is so damn nice right?
hahaz. guess what, is written by me. ^^
showing off, hahaz. wadeva lol!
of course many ppl help out in the process.
this is called teamwork. =P

hahaz.
harling & dear.
dont worry abt me.
i'm okie. hahaz
juz not happy with the CNY stuffs.
it juz makes me 烦。烦。烦。
so, yupp.
do i look like that kind of ppl who will stress out?
hahaz.
so sorry that make u all worry abt me.
lol.

not everything can be within our control,
but we still hav to do our best to control it.
even we know that
we might not be able to achieve what we really want.
BUT at least we tried and we wont regret.

yay... 老爸明天就来咯。
好高兴咯。
又有好多好吃的咯。
想想就开心。
管它什么CNY的，又死不了。
看看偶家小一，心里也感觉舒服多咯。
pia a few picz yay.

帅吧？！

L，也就是小一啦。松山健一 <3

无聊。郁闷。

2008-01-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

人是不是要开心呢？
哎。可最近是闷的很。
先是1堆功课。
再是O level 的成绩。
tests & next week i'm having SPA （不是温泉！！）
basically. no LIFE at ALL.
i dunno wad to say.
but i hav to admit i muz work hard now.
"if u work hard at it, u can be wad u wanna be"
this is true.
so. i'll prove to tt person tt i'm better! oh yeah!

i juz realised tt i wanna blog in chinese juz now, but it turns to english!
how wonderful.
什么ever! is out of topic!

nvm, i' juz insane. hahaz

juz hope tt everyone ard me can live happily forever and ever.

生活就好象一次单程的旅行，没有回程的班次，或许目的地并不是那么重要，重要的是沿途的风景和看风景的心情。FOREVER AND EVER虽然似是童话，但是，怀着这样的一份信念：希望把每一个值得回忆的瞬间都化为永恒．．．

it's monday!

2008-01-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

let me start with today! is neither boring nor fun. is juz lyk a daily routine which can be done even with eyes closed or sth lyk tt. hahaz.and we are having three tests this wk. most of ur already get used to it since last yr. it is my sch life. "wonderful" isnt it?

my whole last weekend is packed with events and homeworks. sat went to v's house. im so glad that we can actually made it, made the things done. Of course, is with mr goh's help. hahaz. we used our class fund to buy pizza for lunch which cost a total of $70.65 included GST. yahh , yahh, GST, it is so ex now, we are actually paying around $5 for the GsT!!! okay, nvm, this's not within my control. hahaz.

so sunday, zaobao meeting, i dunno why everyone was so high that day. but is great that i dont hav to face emo ppl all the times. all thanks to QT's 新闻"报道", which made everyone laugh lyk hell. hahaz. "shuo shuo shuo shuo ..... shuo ni ai wo..." which havnt reached the 高潮, can oready made us laugh. is really very funny. everyone juz jiayou! >.<

我还在徘徊，还在寻找，那个我憧憬的，属于我的将来。是去？是留？这种感觉真的不好。或许在某个瞬间我会觉悟？又或许，根本无助……

L...

沉默？

2008-01-17T17:18:00.000+08:00

沉默啊沉默

不在沉默中爆发

就在沉默中灭亡

------- 鲁迅

wednesday?! how shld i feel!?

2008-01-16T21:41:00.000+08:00

kindda weird. it's wed today.how shld i feel? sad? happy? horrible or great? i dunno izzit bcoz that we are now part of the exco, or juz tired of all the sec4 stuffs, i ( maybe all of us) began to avoid all the cca stuffs. hahaz. is really kind of tired and we are lyk cant find e fulfillment in working for e goals.Upon hearing the word cca, we juz not wanna face it or sth. unlike the past yrs, we love to be together and try our very very best to perfect every detail. however, i hav to admit tt i love my cca, i love all my friends there pw,zoey,yj, 33 etc. and is thru this 3 yrs in cedar, i understand manymany things in life. - - (sound lyk i'm going to graduate?! ><)
anyway, i still dont feel go whn come to cca sessions cuz it makes my throat hurt!!!

ps. wanna say sorry to zoey lah. sorry that i shout at u . i'm really pissed off by the scholars (not all lah. u noe tt few, always them!) so sorry!

scholars... erm... i dunno how to describe them. esp when they r being labelled as PRCs! i wonder if they noe tt many s'poreans r talking abt them hehind their backs. we all noe that u hav difficulties adapting to e new env, new ppl, new languages, but that's not e excuses. 1 person can do that, why cant all of u lyk tt? if u wanna stay as ur current status, i dunno wad can u achieve in the rest of ur life. Maybe i hav no rights to judge all these, but i what i can say is that 你们一的一言一行，言行举止都表现了你们的道德品行，修养教养。人们不会怪你们，只会把责任扔到你们父母的身上。and u r labelled as PRCs, representing a country! ( it sounds lyk NE, but nvm, is a fact.) we'll made mistakes, but not all e tym!!!

4get abt cca then. i'm now flood with all the trigo formulae, sin cos tan sec cosec cot blah blah blah. and i realised i started to do all kinds of hw and even bother to go and find out wad e "red woman" said. hahaz.

so tired, i shall finish up my work and go to sleep and dream abt my swiss choco. hahaz.

another 1st post. ^o^

2008-01-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

dunno why, or juz for fun? i started a new blog. AGAIN!
feel so bad tt didnt update those "blogs" on tym.
this tym? i'm not sure still.
hahaz.
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时间一点点过去。
不知道自己到底在做些什么。
现在的我。是在朝那个我想要的方向走吗？
知道“那天才”今天去yale uni 的面试。
真的越来越开始怀疑一些东西。
一些以前从没在意过的东西。
我？还是那个我吗？

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tmr will be sec2 & 3s audition for the chinese new yr drama.
i noe u did put in lots effort.
we all noe.
so. good luck.
hahaz. i noe u all can do it!

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shall sleep now. yupp. hahaz.